Just a Journal Entry

Just a Journal Entry

August 1st, 2013(at an ungodly hour)

  © K.Taylor

Music is a journal

holding the stories of 

life's ups and downs

and even though most pages are blank 

if you listen close enough 

they'll tell you more tales

than could ever be held 

on a flimsy page.....

So don't stop listening

everyone has a tune

they either dance or cry too

So don't stop listening

to what's going on

in the lives around you

what makes them laugh

what makes them cry

if you don't know

perhaps your not listening

to the music 

that's playing around you

There's always more there

than just what you see

and if we'd just listen

we would hear it perfectly

it may be pain

it may be fear

but with all this noise 

how are you to know?

So don't stop listening

to the music that is playing around you


Shabbat Shalom!

A Crumby Post

 Crumbs...
 K. Taylor June 7th 2013

I am poor
and my hunger is great
I sit at the door
I sit at the gate
hoping to glean a little more
to sit at the table
I can't afford
so it's for the crumbs
that I bless the L-rd

a little here a little there
it may seem meger
but I'm not going anywhere
when a crumb or two
can last a week
a drop of water
refresh my spirit deep
for to sit with the dogs
is better than gold
so long as you're sitting amoung
the Master's fold

And I believe with perfect faith
He will be coming again
I can't say how
and I'm not sure when
but though He may tarry
I will wait for Him
and until I hear that trumpet sound
I know I can be thankful
for the crumbs that fall down

Sorrow and Joy Collide

© K Taylor March 28^th 2013

What do you do when sorrow and joy collide

how can you reconcile both pain and delight inside

well here is the problem the issue that'll arise

you see hurt and pain is a whole lot stronger

and it will dominate the battle every time

it cuts you down  - leaves you in the heap

and no matter how hard you try

it will always haunt your sleep

The truth is I am not sure how anyone survives

if they don't have the Father to reach down and dry their eyes

cause he knows our pain and he knows it hurts

it's happened to him countless times

so before we scream the hows and whys

maybe we should look to him who bled and hang

dayenu - it would have been enough

yet Father still comfort us - for it's You we trust

From Me To You

I stayed up rather late last night writing the previous blog post...finally I was like "I need to go to bed!" crawled in under my cozy blankets...but I couldn't sleep...G-d had other plans...a rhyming novel apparently ;)

From Me To You

© K.Taylor Written December 21, 2012

I looked for Christ in Christmas

I looked in the stockings stuffed to the brim

I dug to the bottom but I didn't see him

I looked on the tree so shiny and bright

but got distracted by the cookies and twinkly lights

Then I looked for him in the presents a bit

but saw only the cards labelled "From ol Saint Nick"

I looked for Christ in Christmas

but didn't have much luck this year

then came Easter, surely I could find him here!

I looked in the Easter aisle here than there

lots of chocolate, but I didn't see Jesus anywhere!

I went to church had a stale square wafer,

two teaspoons of juice in a tiny cup made of paper

but I can count to 3 and things just didn't add up

Finally I looked in the bible,

that's where we should've start,

and as I dug deeper

 it cut straight to the heart

I learnt Shabbat is a sign

of seasons and cycles of time

 All through G-d's word there's this recurring theme

G-d has something call "moedim"!

For pete's sake why didn't I know!?

HaShem appointed His times long ago!

We begin with Pesach

celebrating G-d's great redemption

Our chains were broken and we were set free 

from Egypt's bitter bitter slavery

We eat matzah for seven whole days

cause chametz represents arrogancy

and there's just no room for that

 in what Yeshua did for me 

Shavuot we stood under a cloud

heard the words spoken clear and loud

and three times we repeated our vows

Yeshua is the bridegroom! 

Yes yes I see it all now!

Rosh Hashanah the trumpet will sound

and you better be ready

it just might be Him who's comin to town

Ten more days to get things straight

then it's time to pass through the judgement gate

We know we have sinned 

we know we have done wrong

so we fast on This Day all the day long

"We have erred and have caused a great breach

because your commandments we didn't keep"

The righteous he covers they'll never be lost

the wicked however are strained out like dross

Then out comes the lumber for a seven day feast!

We live in a sukkah...some might call it the least

but it's not about what we make with our hands 

it's about the provision G-d gave us in the desert sands

The cloud and the fire that guided our way

The Rock that followed

giving us water each day

The tag on the end is the last of the assembly 

"Shemini Atzeret" which represents eternity

Oh how awesome the Olam Haba shall be!

When the Mashiach shall forever dwell with me

No it doesn't stop there!

Chanukkah we commemorate His strength and might

remembering the Maccabees and their holy fight

and rededicate ourselves to Him when the menorah we light

as we kindle a new flame each consecutive night

And lets not forget Purim!

The spiel, the mask and disguise

all to remember how G-d used Hadassah

through ways that seemed quite normal or hidden

to save us from those who from the world wished us ridden

She became Queen Esther

but you see she had a hidden identity

which brought us salvation in our time of great need

proving that even when we don't see

HaShem is always here for you and me

Yes where ever I opened and looked 

It wasn't hard to find Mashiach at work

Christmas and Easter on the other hand?

G-d never said "use it to worship Me"

Nope! Open the book, go look and see!

I also learned the things that HaShem had to say

about people who changed His feasts and His ways.

Combining holy with polluted things

Then calling it "kosher" 

forgetting the curses the mix brings

That's when it hit me and I couldn't ignore it

He has an order and I've gotta stop messing it up

after all it's the least I can do - after He drank my cup

poured out His blood and saved me from sin's power too

So now I am wondering..what about you?

Maybe it's time for you to search too?

Cause it hardly seems right 

these things that we do,

when we let the light of His Torah shine through

No I am not condemning

Heck! I was there too!

But G-d kept me up late last night

to write this little note entitled "From Me To You"

 and I'm just wondering what you'll do

cause this time G-d's having the party

....and He's invited YOU!

My family has been on the awesome journey of Torah for over ten years now. Sometimes it's hard to express it all to people...especially at this time of year. Please feel free to share with your friends! This was HaShem's doing so if it can be of use in sharing why you do what you do....DO IT! Then let me know how it went!!! :o) Shabbat blessings to all!

Struggle

Well it's been a pretty productive night. There I go again, just when I start stressing about all my struggling G-d is faithful to grant me one (or a few!) little victories. Yeah I don't think it was all due to the fact that I was playing barefoot(...I think it does help a little bit though :)

Five weeks ago I had played some really great stuff off the cuff(whoa whoa rhyme alert!!) which was, thankfully, recorded...albeit not on my handy dandy little Playbook, meaning it isn't organized!! I know I know...it is practically impossible for any musician (good or bad) to be organized...I still try though. Anyhooldes, tonight I was trying recreate a couple of those pieces so I could keep "trying to be organized" ha ha. But it is a whole different thing trying replay history...because honestly that's what my music is. It's the moment and the moment is generally fleeting...how in the world are you supposed to get back to the same level of sound with music like that?? I am not bragging on my music (at all if you know me at all I am my worst critic) in fact this is where it would pay off to be just a little mechanical....yes yes just a little would be nice. I think I succeeded though, after about ten trys ha ha, I will know better after I have a chance to go through each one and disparage over the inconsistencies. Oy vey.

The bonus of the night was some flurry of writing activity...which hasn't happened, genuinely, for what seems like forever. I was starting to feel like I wasn't going to make it out of the "desert" then bam! Inspiration hits at the oddest of moments while uploading a piece I had called "Struggle" and I didn't stop til I had run it dry, yep I got a second one out'a the deal....but I am holding back on that for now ;) can't give everything up at once you know.

It never ceases to surprise me that I can be so surprised when the Father brings me to a point of un-inspration..less-ness(gimme a break it's late), lets me pull a little more of my hair out in frustration and then coyly drops something pretty darn awesome in my lap....it's a pretty consistent happening. But hey it keeps you humble and it keeps things interesting. I think I'll have a wig made though....just in case.

Enjoy! Lila tov, good-night....or perhaps it should be boker tov, good morning?

Struggle

K.Taylor - December 18th, 2012

Whether small or great

we all have them

some hide inside

don't know when

the next one's coming

it's not a gamble

maybe not even fate

---It's a struggle

    the push and pull

    of struggle

    give and take

    bend and break

    am I ever gonna win this

    struggle struggle

I go straight

end up goin' round

I get up I get knocked down

Well thank G-d

I haven't fallen from grace

cause I'm eatin dust

and I'm flat on my face

just when I think I've

pulled it across the line

I loose my grip

and now my feet are

beginning to slip

like fighting against gravity

is it even a possibility?

no no I won't let go

no no I won't let go

no no I won't let go

until you bless me

until you bless me

The Good Fight

A poem I wrote for a friend,

The Good Fight  - July 2nd 2012

There will never be a battle harder
nor at times more unseen
than the ones fought daily
behind the scenes

there is little praise for victory
yes, usually more mockery
but it is the one that if you lose
could cost you eternity

So let your faith be strong
and your spirit meek
for G-d so loved us first
so that we should seek
to serve him first in all we do
and that no matter what
it would be him we'd turn to

for He orders the steps
of His righteous sheep
and He rescues them
when they start to bleat

the wicked are not so
they fall on their way
getting caught in the thorns
and the things people say

they think they have strength
in their feeble feet
and forget the words
we were to diligently keep

So remember my friend
don't let your guard down
the enemy prowls
when you're not around

and no matter what things we accomplish
no matter what praise we receive
there will never be anything greater
than fighting for what we believe